I should be feeling really happy now.
Over the moon probably.
Ollie is deregistered and that’s a huge chunk of stress gone , evaporated , magicked away.
But actually I’ve spiralled down into a well of the blues.
I’m sleeping better since ollie finished school and yes I feel a big weight has lifted but I’m just feeling so sad and * not quite right*
I have no doubt atall that I’ve made the right decision , I KNOW I have but I just can’t shake the blues.
There is some un -ollie related stuff on my mind right now …. But still I feel like I should be happier.
A twitter friend of mine described this as a * mini emotion crash *
I think she hit the nail on the head
I’ve been through a lot , and I think maybe sometimes the full force of the stress and emotion doesn’t hit you until after the situation , perhaps natures way of getting us through difficult things.
I’m sure the full force of the stress , at the time , would have brought me to my knees .
So there it is ……. I’m feeling all wrong and I’m feeling wrong for feeling all wrong.
this too shall pass